it's just another phase of life we're going through. maybe at this time of life we'll hear of friends go screwing around with others, stories of the unexpected happening. we may be mature enough to be aware of our surroundings, of the what's going on, of the possibility of this that happening. we've heard all sorts of cases going around, thinking 'oh i should be able to handle it', but when it actually happens to you, you'll feel lost and only realise that 'oh shit this world is not right'. the best you could do to is to accept it, accept the fact that it did happen, and so on. there may be the angel and the devil inside you, the former asking you to go for the correct, appropriate choiceA 'because choiceB just isn't right, you know it, don't you? you silly thang', while the devil would be telling you 'no, you shoud go for choiceB you dumbass. choiceA is a fucking unwise choice', gedwhadimean?? sigh.

this world is filled with all different kinds of people. i've seen/gone through enough to tell myself to stop being naive, to even give a doubt in trusting your closest, trusted ones. betrayed, i feel, but that's how everything works, rite? you'll only realise how hurt you are when you've fallen deep into the hole. when healed, you prevent yourself from falling again, but instead you tripped over the hole, although not as hurt, but it would remind you of all the wrongs you've done that lead you to fall deep into the hole previously, and after that trip, you'll be extra cautious to never fall nor trip over it again. you learn from mistakes, mistakes that will make you think about the whys, the what ifs, the i should haves. mistakes i regretted making, yet i'm glad i did make such mistakes to actually learn from it, to look at things in depth instead of just the surface.

things may be out of your control, but howsoever it will turn out to be, you'll only hope for the best. as to how i have change - for the better or worse, maybe it's the different people i've met along the way, how they or the surroundings have affected me, maybe it's the wrongs i've made, maybe it's just the different way of thinking, i dunno. things i thought wouldn't matter me in the past did matter now, vice versa. and to say that others have changed, yea, maybe we just didn't know them well enough in the past, and then to discover the real 'them' through others.

older posts in my other blog made me laugh, made me angry over the same old things. proved how things either still or doesn't matter to you.




okay, cut that crap. =P



had korean bbq at hartamas last night. haven't had one since a kid. that place was filled with koreans - pretty authentic i guess. good service they have, and the best part is probably the appetizers - kimchis & stuffs. there was probably 15 different appetizers, all of which are foc and they refilled it as soon as the plate is empty! and there's this particular dish which i liked (sweetened black beans?), and upon completion, the waiter was already waiting to serve me another plate of the similar dish keke =) they even served this (sweet)corn drink which i mistook it as yucky ginseng. all in all, i enjoyed it better than japanese meals hehe. an interesting meal it was =)

see them appetizers? =)

my 3hour nap is enough to keep me awake for the next couple of hours. shiat.

happy valentine's day! yaya love love hugz hugz to all =P
12:08 am x

it's just another phase of life we're going through. maybe at this time of life we'll hear of friends go screwing around with others, stories of the unexpected happening. we may be mature enough to be aware of our surroundings, of the what's going on, of the possibility of this that happening. we've heard all sorts of cases going around, thinking 'oh i should be able to handle it', but when it actually happens to you, you'll feel lost and only realise that 'oh shit this world is not right'. the best you could do to is to accept it, accept the fact that it did happen, and so on. there may be the angel and the devil inside you, the former asking you to go for the correct, appropriate choiceA 'because choiceB just isn't right, you know it, don't you? you silly thang', while the devil would be telling you 'no, you shoud go for choiceB you dumbass. choiceA is a fucking unwise choice', gedwhadimean?? sigh.

this world is filled with all different kinds of people. i've seen/gone through enough to tell myself to stop being naive, to even give a doubt in trusting your closest, trusted ones. betrayed, i feel, but that's how everything works, rite? you'll only realise how hurt you are when you've fallen deep into the hole. when healed, you prevent yourself from falling again, but instead you tripped over the hole, although not as hurt, but it would remind you of all the wrongs you've done that lead you to fall deep into the hole previously, and after that trip, you'll be extra cautious to never fall nor trip over it again. you learn from mistakes, mistakes that will make you think about the whys, the what ifs, the i should haves. mistakes i regretted making, yet i'm glad i did make such mistakes to actually learn from it, to look at things in depth instead of just the surface.

things may be out of your control, but howsoever it will turn out to be, you'll only hope for the best. as to how i have change - for the better or worse, maybe it's the different people i've met along the way, how they or the surroundings have affected me, maybe it's the wrongs i've made, maybe it's just the different way of thinking, i dunno. things i thought wouldn't matter me in the past did matter now, vice versa. and to say that others have changed, yea, maybe we just didn't know them well enough in the past, and then to discover the real 'them' through others.

older posts in my other blog made me laugh, made me angry over the same old things. proved how things either still or doesn't matter to you.




okay, cut that crap. =P



had korean bbq at hartamas last night. haven't had one since a kid. that place was filled with koreans - pretty authentic i guess. good service they have, and the best part is probably the appetizers - kimchis & stuffs. there was probably 15 different appetizers, all of which are foc and they refilled it as soon as the plate is empty! and there's this particular dish which i liked (sweetened black beans?), and upon completion, the waiter was already waiting to serve me another plate of the similar dish keke =) they even served this (sweet)corn drink which i mistook it as yucky ginseng. all in all, i enjoyed it better than japanese meals hehe. an interesting meal it was =)

see them appetizers? =)

my 3hour nap is enough to keep me awake for the next couple of hours. shiat.

happy valentine's day! yaya love love hugz hugz to all =P
12:08 am x